I feel the necessity to say I
can make it through anything if I
pretend that nothing can effect me
to any lasting or permanent extent.
Be assured that I will eventually be
happy in the place I’m in
for I believe that these trials
all have their own purpose in making the shape
of the person I am destined to become.
You don’t have to waste thoughts over me.
It’s just something that happens;
already, I can feel the change
happening in my head. I’m going to be fine.

Dear Miss,

While I sit here in this febrile state, I can’t help but be reminded of the sensation I feel when your skin touches mine. The burn, the disorientation, the helplessness, perhaps that is the only enjoyable part of this affliction.

Sincerely,
Danny

Dear Miss,

I lay down in bed.
I reached for you,
only to find that you weren’t there.
I suddenly felt cold.
A chill that no amount of blankets
could ever hope to chase away.
Come back to me,
so that I may feel warm, once more.

Sincerely,
Danny

Dear Miss,

i had a nightmare once.
everyone was out to get me.
i ran,
i fought,
i struggled,
i fell.
i didn’t think
that i’d get up
in time to save myself,
and in the moment
when the world was
going to crash upon me,
a faceless woman
held them all back,
saving my life.
as she turned to reveal herself,
i woke
before i could see
who to thank.
i suddenly remembered this now,
because i realized,
that that nightmare
may have been a premonition,
and that woman,
may have been you.

and for that,
i am forever
thankful.

Thankfully,
Danny

Dear Miss,

I believe that it is evident that I love you. It is something that has been accepted, beyond any measure of doubt. But, I don’t think it’s as apparent as to the reasons why I do.

Today is a reason. Today is as good as any other. You saw me shrink away and you wouldn’t let me go. You prevented me from careening into to the depths of despair, even though I so desperately craved to submerge myself. You grabbed me, and looked into me, and with your eyes, said “You’re going nowhere.”

You would have me when I wouldn’t even have myself; and for things like that, I love you immensely.

Sincerely,

Danny

Dear You,

The times have surely changed since this was written. You may not even exist anymore. But if you do, know that you are strong. Know that you can. I, as you, know that your life throws every wrench in the gears that it can; but, you are the best qualified to repair the damage.

Keep living, for the sake of the yous in the past, we only exist to further the advancement of the you that you are now. Soon, you will join us, and you will understand.

Sincerely,
Danny Bullocks
5-27-11